New Years Conundrums

[red_room]

Nat's in a more prominent spot in the Nexus today, with what looks to be a whiteboard stand set up next to her chair in the Forum. She's idly tossing dry erase markers while she observes the people coming and going.

"They say the new year is a time for change, and yet every year people aim so pitifully low. If you could change one thing next year....any one thing, what would it be?"

Inquiring minds want to know! Or, you know, one bored red head with too much time on her hands.

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[rogueinladysclothing]

"Life is a challenge, as is everyone and everything in it. Figuring out how to approach it is often the most difficult part." And she wonders why she doesn't have many friends. No she doesn't. She damn well knows why. It takes a special kind of patience to wade through her bravado to get to the decent parts of her.

"That said, this place has me easily ruffled. It's very different from my home. I know this place is supposed to be safe, but..." She waves a hand vacantly. After finding out the anti-violence field has failed in the past and then being cursed, she's feeling awfully insecure about this place. Home isn't necessarily safer, but it feels like it would be.

[red_room]

"That sentiment I can understand." Natasha straightens in her seat somewhat. "It feels like a trap, doesn't it?"

Like as soon as one lets their guard down here...it will all come apart.

"It sounds too good to be true."

[rogueinladysclothing]

"There is something about this place that I feel doesn't add up. Like it's all some kind of dream." A long, relatively bad one for Amelia. Sure, she has some friends here, but there have been plenty of moments that made her wish she had a way home.

Her eyebrows knit together and her lips draw into a thin line. "It's the kind of dream I wouldn't want spilling over into my world."

[red_room]

"Magic, non humans. The works. There's an awful lot here you don't find on a lot of other worlds, that's for sure." Natasha agrees. That is entirely why she's here. To keep this place from spilling into her own world.

Of course, that's all very hush hush.

"Seems a bit unreal, doesn't it?"

[rogueinladysclothing]

"Everything my world doesn't believe is possible exists here. Stepping into this place... it was overwhelming." To understate things greatly. "Understanding helps, but there's no way I could explain enough of it to the people of my world for them to accept it." Not in time to keep them from doing something tragically stupid.

Amelia sighs softly, her gaze slipping from Natasha to the ground at her feet. Her hair pin tinkles lightly, causing her to shiver ever so slightly. "I know what's real by what I've experienced, but I feel like that's never enough."

[red_room]

"I'd say 'you get used to it' but I guess it's no consolation if you don't want to in the first place." Natasha sighs and crosses a leg over the other.

"So...why wasn't your change, 'I want to go home' then?"

[rogueinladysclothing]

A simple question, but a complicated answer.

Amelia smiles wryly. "Because that's something I can still change." Someday. Maybe. ...hopefully. After a moment, she adds, "If I were to go home right now, just as I am, I could do a lot for my world. But that's not what I want. That's never what I've wanted. I look out for me and mine, always have. If I were to go back now, without working for it, I'd fall back into habits that would cost me the one thing I want to change when I go back."

Her answer is honest, unabashed. That look on her face, somewhere between wistful and sad, speaks volumes about the amount of time she's thought about this very same thing. Maybe... she's grown a little more than she thinks.

[red_room]

"So you want to wish for the near impossible, instead." Natasha nods. She thinks she understands.

"It's good to know what you have the power to change, if it's not today."

[rogueinladysclothing]

"Sometimes it's easier to pass off regrets by making wishes about them." There's another wry smile with that one, but it doesn't reach her eyes.

"Change is hard, but it'll be worth it in the end." She shrugs lightly. "I just hope I have people to share the changes with when it's all over."