twelve_not_fourteen: (Amused - Episode 4)
Han Solo ([personal profile] twelve_not_fourteen) wrote in [community profile] nexus_sages2016-03-29 06:55 am
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The best part of luck is that it will change ...

'It's nice to have things going right for a change, isn't it?'

Fourtity came in peeks and waves for him.  Now and always.  Bad fortune was always sure to come.  Knocking him down, often, and dragging him under waters that seemed far to cold for any one man to withstand.  Tides so strong he had to wonder how he could possibly manage to find his footing again and stand; while the sea threatens to swallow him up.  The crash, again and again - eroding earth into sand.

As surely as the cruel tide of misfortune comes, however, so too does the gentle peace of fortune.  A time to sink his feet into the sand and catch his breath again.  Soaking up the light of the sun as it's rays reach all the way in.  When they finally get in, the beams stoke something inside of Han that is powerful.  Something that is easy for him forget about when he's been so busy trying to keep his head above angry water.

Your peace, Han Solo, comes in the form of a plan finally coming together.

It makes him smile in a way he just can't help.  The Captain walks through the Nexus and even the sounds of his boots striking the ground seem different, today than they did days ago.  The steps lengthened.  His footfalls lighter.

This morning, if you should find yourself out and about, you'll find Han in the parklands of all places.  He is nursing black coffee from a tall paper cup.
mybadhabit: (We will surely make the covers)

[personal profile] mybadhabit 2016-03-29 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
"You seem to be in an unreasonably good mood." Sonic appears out of nowhere, easily falling into step next to Han. The slinky catsuit's been swapped out for a tracksuit, and he walks with his hands stuffed into his pockets. "Did you get a chance to go home and visit your business partner?"
brave_heart_verity: (shy smile)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-29 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
A smiling Han?

That's good, but... almost kinda worrying. So Ver's going to hang back and watch him for a minute, trying to work out what's changed, and maybe just enjoying it while it lasts.

What was she doing out here? Good question. By the look of things, picking flowers, and not for their looks. She's got a basket full of all kinds of things, plants and the tools for harvesting them, and a pair of gloves she's peeling off to tuck in the basket when she finishes the approach.

"Gorgeous day, isn't it?"
brave_heart_verity: (lovable idiot)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-30 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
People gravitate toward the lives they want to live, like flowers following the sun. She needs her routines; she needs life to make sense, just a little. She can only fall apart and put herself back together so many times before she doesn't recognize herself trough the cracks anymore.

But she loves that he reminds her there are options. There are so many other lives out there she could go live. If she wanted to. Someday. And sometimes he takes her out of the quiet little world she's building around herself and shakes her up enough to remind her that she needs a way out as much as he wants a way in.

"Mm, it's nice to be warm again," she agrees. "So, going to share the good news?"
brave_heart_verity: (embarrassed smile)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-30 03:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Such are the ironies of fate. Maybe the promise of nicer weather will coax him back sooner. He could bring Chewie and the fam on a nice little vacation.

"Oh." There's a moment, just a brief moment, where it's clear that's not good news to her. It's selfish of her to want him to stay because she's scared and lonely, and she knows that, but she can't help it. What she can do is try to hide it behind a smile. "That's great. You must be so excited to be going home finally. Good."
brave_heart_verity: (listening)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-30 04:49 pm (UTC)(link)
It's one of her favorite things about this place. Actual safety is a treat.

She knows he knows. He probably knows she knows he knows. And so on. She's trying. Being happy for him while she's sad for herself is the best she can manage right now. That's not what he wants, but it's not nothing. He feelings might be as clear as mud to both of them, but they're real and she needs time to figure them out.

"I know." His steadfast refusal to like anything about the Nexus very much made it pretty clear to her he wasn't going to be relocating. He doesn't need to justify his choice to go home to her. That much, she understands. "Yeah, of course. Whenever you're ready. We'll have her purring like a kitten. Or whatever the appropriate phrase is."
brave_heart_verity: (doubt it but I love ya)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-30 06:47 pm (UTC)(link)
She's not pretending, she's scared. Her father left, her mother disowned her, the world ended and Loki never came. On top of dealing with all of that, she's undergoing profound personal changes. Her sense of permanence is shot; she's surprised that the sun still rises in the east.

"Yeah? You have animals that purr that you keep as pets?" She's just talking about cats, man. Cats are cool and sometimes are assholes. Kind of like her.

She's all smiles at the idea of seeing more of him before he goes. "That would be nice. One last chance for fun before you go back to being the best captain in the galaxy?"
brave_heart_verity: (thinking about it)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-30 11:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"Oh." His answers are usually accurate, but they're often frustratingly vague.

Yes, Han, that's a real smile. She's still got a few left for emergency situations. Keep playing nice and you'll get to see more of them.

She'd be flattered to know she's making this look easy because, in reality, she's been finding it extremely difficult to find ways to entertain him. The lack of obvious enthusiasm has left her doubting herself more than she'd care to admit. Yes, dealing with her lack of self-esteem is something she'll be working on in therapy soon. Once she's done with the crisis situations.

And if this is the last time they'll be doing this for a while? she wants it to be special. "Oh, I'm sure we'll think of something. We could go to a concert, or we could go visit the Windy Cliffs. They say that if you jump off just right, you can fly."
brave_heart_verity: (happy)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-31 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
Did he think that was going to discourage her? Because she's grinning now. "Yes. That's pretty much exactly what I said." After all, flying is just falling and missing the ground. And if anyone knows flying, it's him.

The endearment is well-received. She's not really built to smile this much; if he keeps this up she might actually crack. "I think we'll manage. And if we don't, at least we'll fall together."
brave_heart_verity: (such a showoff)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-31 05:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Her gaze slides away after he does, and when he looks back she's fussing with something in her basket. She's still smiling, and if not so painfully widely, maybe that's for the best.

The teasing gets a huff from her. "You are the soul of generosity. I've obviously been holding out on you and didn't just hear about it the other day."
brave_heart_verity: (shy smile)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-03-31 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
"We're very distracting around here." She tries to carry on with the joke. Her gaze lifts briefly to his face again to see how well it's received.

"Oh, alchemy ingredients. Shade-Seeker and I are going to be experimenting with whether the native species work as well as the ones from Tamriel. And I think he wants me to practice this part before he brings me someplace dangerous to get the more exotic ingredients."
brave_heart_verity: (cautiously optimistic)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-04-01 06:50 pm (UTC)(link)
She can't really imagine how she's distracting, but she doesn't understand most of what's going unspoken between them, so. Just one more thing to add to the list.

"A little nervous," she admits after some reflection. "I'm not sure I'll have the heart to shoot a cute furry animal that looks like a pet, but that'll probably change after one tries to eat me." Wolves are fucking mean in Tamriel. "And I won't be going alone, which helps."
brave_heart_verity: (I dunno...)

[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-04-01 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Storms she can navigate. Feelings, not so much, it seems. But she does prefer not being shut out entirely.

"Yeah. He's a famous hero back home, so I'm sure he can manage to deal with wolves or wandering daedra, and it's not like he's asking me to help close the gates to demon-lands or anything." Ver rubs the back of her neck a bit, because when she says that out loud it sounds really bad.
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[personal profile] brave_heart_verity 2016-04-01 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"The gates to demon-lands don't make sense to most people, don't worry about it. None of them have been seen around here in months."

Isn't that reassuring?

"Most of the magic he does doesn't make sense to me, either."

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